Yey!

I just got so happy earlier when we had a very successful 75% OJT Defense. I can't control it until now (Thanks a lot for those who prayed for our success!)...and I really had a great time during my Dance Sport practice. However, despite this 'highlights' this day, I got pissed off on our exam on Web Application Development! Test 1 was super duper DIFFICULT! As if the teacher was good enough to teach us those lessons so that it will stick in to our MINDS! I SO FUCKIN' HATE THEM!!! (Him to be exact! Grrr! The nerve you Fil-Am ASSHOLE!)

You ain't woth it to be our teacher: Incompetent, lowsy, inconsistent, and and not ready! WHAT A LOSER!!!

I'm Drunk!

Hahahaha! I just finished drinking 1 long-neck Tanduay, so if ever there are grammatical errors and incorrect spelling just leave a comment and I'll update it as soon as possible, okay..?

In addition, I just finished writing the next entry that I will be posting on my blog soon (that is tomorow). I am super duper depressed now...I don't know what I am feeling, and what I must be feeling...(confusing sa..? hahaha!) Anyhow, since my life has been a very big issue here in our place, especially to my friends (are you really my friends..?), Here's the snitch...

Welcome to Ricky's Dictionary

To start of, let us define the words thing, crush, inlove, and gay:

thing - could be living or non-living things

crush - is a thing (most often a person or an animal) that I got jealous of because of somthing(s) that he/she/it have that I don't have...more like an admiration in a negative way

inlove - an awkward feeling (it could either be nice, or weird) towards a person, and not a thing

gay - are those person who indulge with sexual intercourse with the same sex
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Now that you know what these words mean, I'll tell you guys the real THING:

• I have a lot of crushes, and I publicly tell it to anybody.
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• I am definitely not inlove with my crushes, because if I am, I should have not vulgar it to anyone (What do you think of me, STUPID..? I know what DAMAGE CONTROL means Sucker!)
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• I am not gay! I am totally aware that I often tell to you guys (my friends) that "I just had sex with a man" or "I just had a customer who paid me big time, so I gave him an extra hour"...bla bla bla, but if you really are my friends would you believe in this kind of BULLSHIT!!? Are you really my friends..?
  
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• I am also aware of what and how I act in front of you guys (my friends), and anybody else, but that's me...and I can't change for you to like me...this is who I am, and who I am is the BEST in me!
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• If you still think that I'm gay, that's because your pea-brain is already covered with f***ing incorrect definition of what gay really means. Do you really think that if a person has a soft wavy voice, a demure disposition, a fashionable style, or a shaky butt while walking is GAY!!? Then you are nothing but a STUPID, UNEDUCATED, DICKHEAD person who unknowingly F****ED up your own life because you do not even know what's the real meaning of the said words above. Now before you try to criticize me and spread the unreal gossip, try to make an insight if what you will be doing is the right thing, or the RIGHT thing..? (Get it..?) If you still don't get it, KILL yourself ASSHOLE!!!
  

Woooh! that's it! Thank God I'm DRUNK! By the way, sorry for the foul (profane) words above. I just couldn't stop my hands from typing...and it just breaks my heart...peace out

Successful Defense

We just finished defending our OJT Project, E-Radio: A Live Audio Streaming Implementation and thank God it was accepted, although it has a lot of comments from our panelists. Grrr!

Actually, this is our second defense for this Project and I just got pissed-off because they should have given all the comments they can make during the first defense, but instead they had more comments today than the last time. (The nerve of this incompetent teachers...sorry to say! Note: Not all)

I just had enough of these powerful people surrounding the campus...with their guts and chinned up facade.

I just remembered a theory I made back in High School:

Having a name with Magna cum Laude or Suma cum Laude do not necessarily mean that you are one of the best students in your school...in some ways, teacher factor comes in.

Pressure!

Now these are the reasons why I hate being a graduating student:


*OJT - making a live audio streaming (System) - Grrr!
*MIS - understanding different kinds of Information Systems - Soso...
*System Administration - using and understanding not Solaris Operating System - I like this subject
*AutoCad - making complex figures (blue print) - I like this subject
*C++ - making the program using C++ - Soso...

Take Over, The Breaks Over

An amazing journey to my love life, or i may say "A 5 Day Love Life".

Last June 12, 2008, the day my Lola died (10:00 pm), Ally and I got had this commitment to go over board and be more than friends. It was an enchanting night at Woodward Little Theater. Day passes by and we got so close to each other, and we had lots of fun together. We had a great night life, and often meet at STEDS, Silliman. However, something happened that twisted our fate. Actually, I'm not really sure what's her reason why she keeps pushing me away from her during the debut of Jesicca Delos Santos, a very good friend of ours, and why she was so dull and i asked her why but she only said "I was better of a friend than your girlfriend. " Then...silence.............

On June 17, 2008, the Last vigil for my beloved Lola, I invited Ally to come see my Lola and my family hoping that she's fine because we were talking already, but before we entered the church, she told me that she needed to fix things with her studies, her family, and herself. I feel so heavy that night, it was like my heart was pounded by machines used in the movie 'SAW'. I cant move, I cant speak and suddenly tears keeps falling down my eyes.

I felt her reason was not enough for all that I did for her. It was a lame reason for me, but I have no choice but to let go. A painful reality that can never be avoided by a lot of people. :(

Today, we still see each other since I introduced her to my friends and they really get along well, but I can still feel the pain that her lips had caused me and every time I see her laugh makes me want to cry so hard because she seem so strong and doesn't feel anything. I cant look straight to her eyes and I cant talk to her as easy as before and I'm not sure if we can still be friends...

(Ally: Not real name..)

Sometimes being frank HEALS!

Hi, its me again... I just checked a friend, a Brother (Kappa Sigma), if his okay or something; however, I never thought I could be so exact to check that his girl friend just broke up with him. Sorry to hear that Oshy. Anyhow, I'll let you guys read the most significant, and most powerful thing that a HEART BREAK can give.


Oshy speaks:

Here are the very few things you will easily notice when you meet me: I'm funny looking... I'm cheerful... I'm a joker... I'm thoughtful (char)... I'm a shy boy (hehe sometimes not)... I'm a good boy... I'm longing for my family... I don't take advantage of my friends... I'm friendly... I'm hardworking yet lazy (hehe)...
And here are the many things you don't know about me. I'm a true friend... I'm not faithful to God... I don't mock... I don't usually get angry at my friends (well, sometimes)... I hate my life... I cherish the time i spent with my love ones... I don't feel happy at my life... I easily get bored... I hate my parents... I don't feel lucky at all... I'm always sad... I'm always pressured... I hate plastic persons... I hate mockers... I hate social climbers... I hate liars... I hate bitches and sluts... I hate man whores... I hate people with high pride... I hate fakers.... I hate fuckers... I hate immoral persons that don't have values in life... I hate stupid persons... I hate flings and adulterers... I hate bad experiences.... I hate playboys and playgirls... I HATE FUCKIN' HACKERS... Those are the things that best describe me... So, if you can't accept me at my worst, Then you don't deserve me at my best!


Powerful...huh...Go bro!

So Sick of Mama's Speach

Sorry for everything, Ma and Pa, but I just can't believe you did this to me.. I never forgot the day that I told you that I quit being a Student Assistant in the Library because Cyborg, the Assistant boss, has this attitude of insulting every person that comes her way...and yes, she is a SHE.. Boy I was so happy that you respected my decision. You even said that "don't worry about the money, all you need to worry is your studies." But what happened this morning? You blasted in front of me like cannon balls speaking "I can't afford your schooling anymore and I'm sick and tired of loaning."

I don't know why but it just broke my heart.. What happened to your first quote then!? Grrr!

I'm burning, inside and out...if you only know how painful it was...

I gave you all the achievements I could give but maybe it's just not enough...

The Start of my New Blog...

Hi! this is my second blog, aside from my Friendster Blog... I will be posting my entire life here starting...........Hmmm.....now!

Let's see, checking time it's 2:00 pm and I am currently doing my blog during my Networking class..Hehehe! It's what I usually do in this class..Anyhow, here I am making some stuff while listening to my very boring teacher...By the way, I got pissed off last night by my Dad because of his senseless talks telling me that I always go to school even on weekends...I was just wasting 'their'
money and I am not doing my best in school...(Ouch!) He also said that I still don't have anything to be proud of...(That's cruel)

If he only knew what I was doing in school. His words kept on flowing into my ears like a breeze flying its fastest approaching my delicate, sensitive ears.

If I could only speak...but I can't...He's too powerful. He throws stronger than me, he speaks wiser than me, and he glares at me as if I am a 'sore looser'.