Letting Go

 (Last Sunday, September 13, 2009)

It was a blue Sunday morning. My parents where here in Cebu to visit my sister, my brother and I. We were completely united...yet my heart was no where to be found.

We went to Church together since it has been a long time since we went to church all together...and the priest spoke the words that enlightened my heart and my mind: Letting go is the only key...

And there I was reflecting and understanding what the phrase was...and now I understood.

After Church, my parents went back to our hometown, Dumaguete City...and I went out to meet a good friend. We watched a movie which was supposedly funny, but I burst my heart out during watching the movie. I never thought letting go of someone very special would be pulling your heart out. To this friend, THANK YOU!

...and to this someone, you had your chances and you let it go away. I made a fool out of myself just for you... Someone told me that you love me and gave me some proof of conversations. Now I know what you feel, but I just don't understand why you're denying everything in front of me. You are so good when it comes to texting or chatting, but when it comes face-to-face you stumble. You might regret when I find someone else...

You want to play? Okay, let's play. I know your game now...You want to flurt, lust, and the like... I can do that, probably even better than you do...but now with no strings attached. Dare me!

From this day on, I'll be seeing you as a friend...

Sorry for being drunk tonight...but you made me do this...